What’s going on?
I want to ask myself as I type in the new wordpress dashboard, my fingers clicking nervously over the keys and my heart thumping in my chest. What am I doing here, in a new space, trying to understand why I’m not blogging the way I was just a few weeks ago.
But you see, my old blog – Sittin’ There on Capitol, Hil – was for my beautiful, messy, college self. It was a blog for the city sidewalks and the night walks to the Capitol building. It was for the journey towards fullness in college. In classes and young love and questions about the future, and all that late night emptiness and hearts breaking open. And oh, it was good for the soul to be there.
And so then you wonder, why am I here now, blogging somewhere else? Why not just keep the old space, and live in it? You see, I’m graduating in a few days. And with graduation comes the joy and the uncertainty of a new phase of life. It’s a phase for new questions, new adventures, new hearts that break and mend and break again. I want to take you on this journey with me, and I want to remind myself that I’m beginning again. So I want to share a new space with you. I want to fling my heart open here, and invite you all over for some sweet tea on the porch.
Why the title? I pondered and pondered about the title. And I couldn’t find one I loved for weeks. But this morning, as I began to think about what’s next, I heard it. We are called to wild love. We are called to live with hearts that are full and overflowing, to stretch ourselves to carry each other. We are called to see, and seek, beauty around us. We are called to honor one another with a fierce loyalty and love.
This is the wild love I want to live now.
And so, I name this space the wild love, to remind me.
I love you already, readers, journeyers, lovers of leaving and arriving. I can’t wait to begin again with you.